Sleepless

Absent Love Letters

I drown in your departure

I make everything of you disappear

Burn these sheets that you never slept

Cover my heart

Burn this skin

My eyes go from grey

Back to blue again

Another morning

An After light

A thought

A whisper

A prayer

A ever after

Forget the horror that was here

Entwined with the decay on these sheets

In this place that felt safe

Now there is nothing but fears

Nothing but regrets

Nothing that seems clear

You never gave one or two

You only gave a rendition of you.

today just over a month after he left, I decided to text him this is what I said and what he said in return.

Me

I miss you so much, everyday hurts a little more and this is not getting any easier.... x x x x x x

Dave

I'm so sorry your still hurting but it will get better I promise x x x x

Me

I't's just so hard not having you in my life Mr x x x x x x

Dave

Everyday will start getting better, your start 2 laugh more smile more, be strong mr your be ok, x x x x

Nans Bed Two Days After

Gone Again

The death that is now imprinted in this smile

The eyes that once shined blue

Now they’re just a shade of grey

I’m forever lost to that death

I tumble and fight with this loss and it’s beautiful

Tearing up the hill that they walk upon

Feel the earth that has covered this skin

The dust that covers these eyes

The cold nothingness that feels this skull

I’m lost as I feel the emptiness fill up the room

Gone again.

Dead Sky

It was after this day, after the rush of you and the lonely day after we made love. I covered ever inch of my skull with thoughts of you, you never returned, only to pick through ever last love letter that I wrote you.

After He Has Gone

I laid there for about an hour after he left

it felt cold, his side of the bed

so I shut these broken eye's

warned this broken skull

I fell, as I felt nothing.

Love, Light and Photographs.

He left me at 8.06pm on Wednesday the 17th of March after nearly 6 years together.